Boo-ya

HAPPY DANCE!!!

Perhaps ovulation was just delayed a bit from all the BS that happened 1-2 weeks ago because I just got a positive home ovulation test today! It was my last one of the pack too!

I was so bumming for the last week because I thought the Clomid had failed me this round, but no, it's still doing its job. Just running a little behind schedule, about 6-8 days. Aaaand, my temps started to increase, just a little, but more "normal" than they were. So maybe there is hope for round 4 after all...as long as I'm reading the damn thing right and it's not a false positive.

You know what happens next (no need to go into detail) and then the 2 week wait.

4th Quarter Game Plan

BTW, haven't ovulated yet and my BBT's have been lower than normal for the past 8 days. Yes, lower than my normal pre-ovulation temps from the last 2 cycles. I don't know what the hell is up with that. WHAT UP WITH THAT? My googling has found me two results: 1) that I haven't ovulated yet (no shit) and 2) I could have a thyroid disorder. Well #2 is probably not accurate. I've been tested before for thyroid problems and always came back normal. That also wouldn't explain why my temps have been normal up until just 8 days ago. Oh yeah, there's a #3 too, that my thermometer is retarded. Well, perhaps I'll go waste another $7-$10 on a 2nd basal thermometer only to find out that it wasn't the thermometer.

Can you tell I'm only SLIGHTLY frustrated?

I've sort of started to come up with a short-term plan for all of this hoo-ha.
1) call my OBGYN to schedule an appointment with her (yes, an actual sit-down appointment, no more of this over-the-phone business) to discuss this mess and what my options are after the 6th round of Clomid and to also ask about Metformin/Glucophage even though I'm not insulin resistant nor pre-diabetic.
2) wait until the end of the year to see if I've ovulated then call for a blood pregnancy test so I can get on provera (UGH, that stuff is the devil!)
3) come up with some sort of financing plan in case we need further treatment or need to see a reproductive endocrinologist
4) decide how long we want to wait before seeing a specialist
5) look for some sort of support group

I'm starting to come to grips with that the fact that I'm relatively young (25) and that if I need to take some time off (6 months-1year) to figure out my game plan then that's ok. As we have witnessed in the past, it is not entirely impossible for me to get pregnant without the aid of drugs or procedures, but it sure is a hell of a lot harder.

I need a vacation. NOT of the christmas variety.

Rolling Stones

I think my O'ing might be a little off this cycle. It's day 20 today, all of my OPK's have been negative thus far (well, I haven't tested yet today). Day 15 sort of indicated ovulation but had a negative OPK that day and I don't have any of the normal post-O symptoms that I normally have. I did have a bout with kidney stones, got put on an antibiotic, and came down with a nasty cold (AGAIN) less than a week ago so maybe one of those things messed up my cycle a little bit. I had been O'ing around day 17-19.

Just hope something happens this cycle. We can't lose a round of Clomid at this stage in the game. Also hoping that I don't become afflicted with anything right before ovulation next cycle. My body's timing is just fantastic, don't you think? When I'm not on drugs, my period is never regular and when I am on drugs, my body decides to take on the task of kidney stones or seasonal sickness.

The last couple of posts have been sort of negative, no? I need to get out of this blogging funk that I'm in and write something positive and humorous.

Oh well, better get back to work. Just had to take a break and write this blog because my morning is dragging!

He's a she-he, She's a he-she

Yeah so I watched a show on the Discovery Health Channel this weekend called "Transgendered and Pregnant". I won't get into how weird the show was but I will give a little background. The "husband" is a female-to-male transgender and the "wife" is a male-to-female transgender. Both of them had been on hormone injections for a long time but both had their original anatomy. It was said that once a male takes female hormones for 6 months or longer, he becomes sterile. And similar for the female-to-male. But SOMEHOW, by the way of this wacky world, they ended up getting pregnant naturally. In fact, they were so surprised that the "husband" (former female) got pregnant, she didn't even find out until she was 28 weeks along.

Now a little tidbit of info on PCOS for you: part of the problem of PCOS is that your body produces too many androgens, which are male hormones, causing problems with ovulation, amongst many other things.

Riddle me this: How is it that these two transgenders, who've been on opposite hormones for years, somehow conceive naturally and have a totally "normal" pregnancy yet I'm sitting here relying on a synthetic drug to trick my brain into producing more estrogen so I'm able to ovulate? Not to mention, hopefully being able to carry a pregnancy to term!

Ay yay yay. Some things in life will never make sense to me.